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I haven’t really blogged that much for a whole, as I’ve been struggling myself. I appreciate everyone who has so far submitted their personal story.
Saturday morning, I had the Home Treatment team come over to basically check on me and give me support. Me being me, I lied. Denied having pills, and acted completely fine. An hour after he left, I had done it.
I had overdosed and washed it down with a bottle of alcohol. An hour or so later, my friend turned up, I remember the paramedics getting me up but that’s about it. When I got to hospital I got the “with the amount of pills you have taken you could die” I was thinking “that was the whole point”. When my bloods came back it showed liver damage and the results where high, so in paravolex I went!
I didn’t sleep much on Saturday at all, but when it came to having to move from the bed to the chair I found myself in much agony. I would never have thought I’d be in so much pain.
I sat waiting for the 16 hour drip to finish, and when it did they re-done my bloods. The results showed that they managed to reverse most of the damage I had done to the liver but not all.
I spoke to crisis after, funnily enough it was the one that came Saturday morning. He was happy to let me go back home.
I guess the reason I’m sharing this is because through my paranoid thoughts, the trust issues and being able to so perfectly paint on such a happy mask, has left me in a lot of pain.
I had to force myself to tell the truth last night and today. I know I needed to be honest, but I couldn’t do it without the support I had from my good friend, Jane.
I really urge anyone who’s having suicidal thoughts to reach out and get help. There’s people out there that care about you. If that be the crisis team or a helpline, they’re all there to help you and to support you.
Please, please, please, look at the “in a crisis?” Link if you feel you’re going to harm yourself. You are loved.
I want to say a special thank you to Hollie, Jane and Dannielle. Without you, I would have been dead. Although I have those crappy thoughts, I know now from you three people I can get through it all one step at a time!
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