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PTSD Survivor Poetry by Mary McManus is this week’s installment in our ongoing celebration of National Poetry Month….
Face to face with death at knife point cold darkened eyes stare into mine unflinching I stare back afraid to move a muscle already dead. Life force safely tucked away unknowing the outcome of this untimely encounter with death at the hands of a madman reasoning destroyed by gin and vermouth. Angels intervene he finds peace in death I am left to put the pieces of my life back together again. As numbness gives way to pain pain gives way to gratitude appreciation for this wondrous wonder filled life where nothing makes sense and everything makes sense purpose out of pain grace in ungodly moments surrounded by love happy so happy to be alive to tell the tale of one who almost died.
A stranger to myself hollowed heart broken and defeated cement thick walls no way out no way in my light flickered and dimmed never went out as he breathed me he fanned flames of hope I’d stumble and fall he held out a hand to me knowing that love lights the way I’m coming home.
Mary McManus, MSW grew up in Westchester, NY and contracted paralytic polio in 1959 at the age of 5, during one of the last polio epidemics in the United States. Mary survived 9 years of unrelenting sexual, physical and emotional trauma at the hands of family members culminating with the suicide of her father in 1971 as she prepared to enter her freshman year at Boston University.
Mary was at the height of her 20 year award winning career as a social worker at the VA when she was diagnosed with post polio syndrome, a progressive neuromuscular disease in December of 2006.
Mary did not take the diagnosis of post polio syndrome sitting down. She embarked on a healing odyssey that began with a leap of faith as she left her social work career to heal her life and to follow her newfound passion as a poet and writer. Mary discovered that post polio syndrome was the manifestation of unhealed trauma and the breach that resulted in her mind/body connection as well as the late effects of having contracted paralytic polio. Her pen became her divining rod for healing as she imagined herself as healthy and whole, even “Running the Race”, which was the first poem she wrote during the dark night of her soul in February of 2007.
Mary is a 2009 Boston Marathon finisher, blogger, the author of 5 books of inspirational poetry and her memoir, “Coming Home: A Memoir of Healing, Hope and Possibility”.
Mary holds a BS in Public Relations from Boston University, an MSW from Boston College and many fond memories of her VA social work career in her heart. She lives in Chestnut Hill, Massachusetts with her husband of 36 years and their four foot companion, Jamie. To learn more about Mary, you can visit her website at www.marymcmanus.com.
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